I just don't know how to feel, the past few days have delivered me grief beyond my imagination.
It feels like I just lost something so valuable and personal that the tears come in waves and it doesn't take much to set me off.
We battled her cancer for the past five years and the last 14 months have been the biggest challenges of our lives. In the end thanks to the help of Hospice of Santa Cruz, we were able to keep Anne comfortable despite the cancers ravaging her body.
I was with all all those final days, round the clock to be there and help her in any way and believe me I shed more than my share of tears. She is finished with her battle against one of the most terrible diseases I have ever witnessed. I believe, near the end, Anne decided to take care of business and kill her cancer, the sad trade off is that she had to die to do it. I believe she is in a better place, her quality of life was so diminished, she was at the mercy of her caregivers to do the most basic tasks. Anne went "went off to college" in style and will participate in Stanford University's willed body program where the school of anatomy will study her case and with her help hopefully find a cure for plasma cell leukemia.
I will love Anne forever. Rest in peace.
Jeff
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